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MAH MAH.. I walk out the room.. Pulling out the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and I just can't stop.. I been thinking of YOU a lot lately.. and I needs to go see YOU.. but How.. and as I am standing out.. I would turn to the Left.. I see the Horse.. and it belongs to the Older Man who teaches me.. maybe this time.. and I would look at the Art sketch paper.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. YOU know that YOU may Not see me.. but I will be at the Palace.. I will only be like a Shadow.. like the wind.. YOU can't see Me.. but YOU know that I am there.. knowing because I love YOU.. and I would Fold the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU in my Back.. and I would walk.. I stop by the Horse.. and I would get back on this Black Horse.. I would hit the Horse likely and the Horse starts to RUN.. as I am riding on the Back of the Horse.. feeling the Wind in my face as the Horse keeps On running down the Road.. all I can think of is YOU.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. even though I may not be close.. even though you may Not see Me.. I know that as long as I can see YOU.. just seeing YOU from a Far is all I can ask for.. even though I may Not be able to say or tell YOU what My Heart truly feels or expresses to YOU.. as Long as my eyes sees that YOU are doing good.. that is ALL I am asking for.. the Horse keeps On running down the road.. all through the Day.. I see this Horse.. this Black Horse keeps on going.. it feels Like me.. Just cannot stop but keeps On going.. as I would watch the SUN Setting down.. when I look on the side.. I see the waters.. and the Horse would run slowly as it stops.. I give this Horse.. the Black Horse some rest.. I get Off the Horse.. Now.. as I would walk close to the waters.. there are group of guys by the waters.. and I would turn to look at One of the guys.. and I would stand still.. as I would pull the Art sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. I just can't stop thinking of YOU.. and it is killing me inside that I can't be close to YOU.. Now.. one of the guys.. he comes closer and takes a LOOK at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and Looks at me.. and I tell Him.. Yes.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. if YOU are asking me.. I am a Low Born servant.. and I know I can't even Look at YOU.. the Crown Princess.. who am I to love the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I know that I am Not suppose to ever put my eyes on YOU.. and the penalty for getting caught is Death.. even though I know that If I break this Law.. But.. if YOU take a LOOK at me.. I am already Dead.. so I have No more fear.. I have already broken this Law and just ready to Die any time SOON.. but what can I do.. if I love YOU.. is this My fault.. How is it my fault if My Heart is the One who is causing this Kind of trouble.. this Kind of problem in my life.. I am just going what My Heart truly Needs.. and the Guy looks at me.. He works at the Palace.. and He is the Palace Guard at the Door.. and I just could Not believe.. he came just for a break with Other friends who works at the Palace.. they are all guards at the door.. and I just could Not believe.. He is going to help me to take to where YOU are.. tells me Not to tell any one because.. My Heart.. WHICH only Loves YOU.. as I would watch the waters on this Night.. I just could Not sleep.. but.. for the Longest time.. it has been so long since I saw YOU.. it is a Picture of YOU when YOU are YOUNG.. Now.. the Guy who came with his friends.. one of them had an Art Sketch Picture.. but it is the recent Picture some one drew.. and the guy's friend showed me.. as I took into my hands.. YOU just blew my Mind.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have become so Beautiful.. when did YOU grew UP looking so Beautiful Like this.. and as I am looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the recent drawing of YOU.. My eyes could Not Help.. but my tears.. it just could NOT let it sit and I felt.. my tears just ran down as I am looking at the recent Picture.. the Art sketch paper.. the drawing of YOU.. and I am wondering.. the Guy looks at me.. even his friend Loves YOU too.. I am thinking.. I know there must be More but.. it does Not matter with me.. as the Sun starts to rise.. the Guy.. he came with three friends and Got into the Horse.. and gave me this New.. the recent Picture of YOU.. and I would walk down away from the waters.. and I get ON the Back of the Black Horse.. the four of the guys starts to ride the Horses.. as I get on the Black Horse.. I would ride this Horse following the Four Horses.. and Now.. I never knew that I am able to get this Close.. I just can't believe it.. My dreams are coming true.. How could this Be.. as the Horses would run down and the towns.. the villages are passing By.. and the two Guards by the Fortress Gates.. the Four Guards show the badges and they are able to get me Inside.. the Gates Open wide.. and the Four guards riding on the Horses.. and I am behind the Four Palace Guards following in the Black Horse.. as the Horses keeps On going and running down this road.. the path.. and it leads to the palace gates.. two Guards.. Opens the front gates.. as the FOUR PALACE GUARDS shows and lets me in with them.. and Into the back gates they go.. as the Horses all slow down.. the Guy who I first talked too.. He gets out of the Horse and He points at the Chamber on TOP.. that is where YOU are.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the Other Guard tells me that YOU are not there.. that the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. is at the training ground.. and HE is the One who leads.. as I get off the Black Horse.. walking across on the Other side.. and there is the Fence.. as I walk with the Other Guard.. I would stop.. from the back.. I pull out the Recent.. Art sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. as grown.. I just can't believe you have grown this Much.. so much Prettier and never imagined YOU be this Beautiful in my life.. Now the Other Guard stops and looks back.. I just can't believe.. I am going to see the Crown Princess.. do YOU not see this.. LOOK.. I am at the palace.. and going to get to see closer LOOK at the HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it is Like a Dream come true.. I was truly worried about.. How am I going to see YOU.. I know that I have No business at the Palace. NO guards are going to let me In but.. it is a true Miracle that I am here.. and get to meet.. the Other Guard looks and smiles.. and He turns to lead the way.. as I am following HIM.. in my hands.. I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the RECENT drawing picture of YOU.. and I see the other Guard.. He stands by the fence.. and He stops.. and I am walking.. my Heart.. It is beating so Fast.. why do I feel so excited.. why is My Heart beating.. is it beating or dancing from the Inside.. and I stop by the Fence.. and as I let down the Art Sketch Paper.. the Recent drawing picture of YOU.. I see YOU stand there.. the Other Guard points.. that is the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. who is in control in that training ground.. and I see YOU from the distance.. and there are many MEN.. the new recruits as YOU are the One over seeing and teaching them with the Stick.. and My Heart.. Are you really holding the Sword.. the way of the swordsmanship.. as YOU turn toward the Fence.. YOU see two men.. and YOU stop.. showing the form of the Arts of swordsmanship and LOOKS.. as I see YOU looking at me and the Other guard.. It just can't be.. is it really YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and of course YOU don't know who I am because it has been such a Long time I saw YOU.. and I would kneel.. two knees.. and the Other Guard kneels with me on two knees.. Head Looks on the ground.. arms forward.. and I see YOU are coming.. walking over to the Fence.. and I just can't look at YOU.. why can't I breathe.. why is it so Hard for me to breath and YOU stop by the fence.. and the Other Guard would answer YOU.. and YOU turn to LOOK at me asking me.. and I would lift UP my Head.. and I would LOOK at Your eyes.. DO YOU not remember Me.. right Now I am at the Older man's House.. he is my master my teacher at this Point.. but.. YOU don't remember Me.. and I see YOU looking and with Question.. it is me.. at the Garden.. when YOU came Long ago.. when we were younger.. and my Father who was the Head over the servants.. who served the King but was servant to the CROWN PRINCESS.. which is YOU.. and my Hand went back to Pull out the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. and I lifted it UP before Your eyes and I see your hands grab hold unto.. DO YOU not remember this Picture.. this Art sketch paper.. the drawing of YOU.. when we were little.. before YOU left.. I asked a Boy.. and HE had to get your Permission.. and YOU allowed that BOY to draw YOU and the Boy would give me this Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. the boy say.. I am good to have this Picture.. the Art Sketch paper.. this drawing picture of YOU.. by the tree.. before YOU told me that YOU could never come back to the Garden.. that WHEN I grew to be older.. for YOU to know.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU told me to bring this to YOU so that YOU will remember who I am.. and it was YOU who allowed me to have this.. to keep this.. that one day when I come to this palace.. when I bring this to show YOU who I am.. YOU will know that it was ME.. the lowly born servant at the garden who never stopped Loving YOU.. I came all the way just to tell YOU that I have grown.. and YES.. that I am going to enter the king's service and to Be a Palace Guard.. so that I can come close to YOU.. to protect YOU and to defend this nation.. I told you this when I was little.. when I was young.. I told YOU.. before YOU left for good.. I told YOU I promise I will come

MAH MAH.. Would pull the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. it is when YOU were Little.. the Boy WHO gave it to ME.. who told me that I have the Permission from YOU.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. LOOKING at the Tree.. by the Garden.. I am always thinking about the Garden because it was the first TIME.. when I saw YOU coming.. riding on the Horse.. YOU wanted to see How the Garden feels.. it was when I saw YOU there.. when I started to LOVE you at the Garden.. as I am looking at one of the new Recruit.. He looks at me and swings the WOODEN SWORD at me.. and He misses as I go back.. with the WOODEN SWORD stick I am holding.. I would swing Forward and It hits the new recruit and He falls to the Floor.. to the ground.. I am standing.. holding a stick in my hand.. Looking at the Sun rising before my eyes.. I know that I must get ready.. the Other hand pulls Out the Art Sketch paper.. it is the drawing of YOU.. I can hear my Heart beating so Fast when I look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. I am getting ready and preparing these Men.. the MEN who came to YOU.. the New recruits.. I had NO idea that YOU would put me on the front Line.. to prepare these Men.. these YOUNG MEN.. the New Recruits.. WHY would you give me this Mission.. why would you give me the Permission to teach and to train these YOUNG MEN.. YOU know that I am Not that GOOD.. but Like HOW you gave me the Order and has commanded me to do so.. There are A lot of Other Generals.. the Superior before Me.. the Aged and well fought.. who are better Instructors and even YOU have the Chief Generals.. even the Great Commanders.. who has lead many victories over many wars they fought.. and I just don't understand why YOU put me in charge and gave me this KIND OF Order to do So.. I am Not even well trained.. did NOT fight many wars or has lead many soldiers to WIN many victories of Wars.. but WHY did YOU put me in Charge.. and I am looking at the Picture.. the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. as I am standing.. YOU also gave me few Men.. there are Seven of My Friends who are standing with me and with me they are standing Behind me.. I only came here.. just to be a Palace Guard.. just to guard the back door of the Palace.. Never imagined that I would come this very far.. so Close to YOU.. Only thing I ever wanted to ask of and say to YOU is how much I love YOU.. I only wanted to express deeply my Love for YOU.. never thought that I be here today.. as I am watching the Sun Rise.. before me are the tents.. and very SOON the New Recruits are going to come Out of the tents they are sleeping in and I have to begin the training for the New Big War.. as the Seven Men are behind Me.. I am looking forward.. I see the Men.. the New recruits walking Out their tents.. My tears.. two lines are falling down both eyes.. I just can't believe I have to do this.. But I am not even experienced veteran at war.. I am Not even the general.. Not even the TOP general or the Chief general.. Not even the Commander or the Great Commander.. those MEN has years of many experiences of striking and WINNING in wars.. but why did MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH choose me to do this.. there are great war veterans.. WHAT AM I suppose to teach.. what Words MUST I say.. how can I lead victories for the Next war.. and I would watch all the YOUNG MEN.. the New Recruits walking Out and they all stood in the Line just waiting.. I don't know what to DO.. and I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU and I would say.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. WHY did You give me this Kind of Order.. why did YOU commanded me to train and to teach.. to instruct these YOUNG RECRUT MEN.. what if I fail trying too.. and I would put the arm down holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. the Closest Friend takes the Art Sketch paper in my hand.. and I turn my Head aside.. and I would look.. by the Fence.. I see YOU there.. the CROWN PRINCESS.. sitting on the Horse.. I see YOU with the BIG CROWN on your Head.. standing around are the COMMANDERS.. the Chief Generals.. the Great Commanders of War.. I see the TOP Generals behind YOU and YOU are looking at me.. and I see YOU pulling Out the Sword.. telling me that the training has Begun.. But.. something stops Me.. something stops me to go further.. I don't know what it is because these are YOUR new recruits.. these are Men that came here for YOU.. to Fight for the Next war.. to Fight for the Next Battle Field.. these are the MEN who are going to Die if they are NOT trained right.. who came to protect and to defend YOU.. for the Nation and for YOU to be their QUEEN.. even though YOU are the Crown Princess right Now.. what am I doing right Now.. I would fall down on both Knees.. and I put my arm up forward and I would Lower my Head before YOU.. and I see you pointing the Sword to me.. telling me to speak.. and I lift UP my Head and I look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. these are YOUNG NEW MEN.. New recruits.. they are Unexperienced and has Not trained for years.. do NOT know what it is Like to fight in the Battle fields of War.. How can YOU let me be the trainer or the Instructor.. I know that I might sound so weak.. but it is the Lives that YOU are putting Under.. they have Lives and the Lives are very special and precious.. because of my Wrong.. I don't want to see the YOUNG MEN.. the New recruits to fall by the swords because of the wrong teaching or instructing.. that is why I am begging YOU to let someone else.. like the experienced and the veterans of war.. who lead men to victories to take my Place.. and I would see YOU looking at me.. but The sword.. I see the sword YOU are holding.. YOU lifted it UP higher telling me to GO.. and my Heart.. My Heart starting to beat so fast when I see YOU believe and Your Faith.. the trust YOU have.. telling me to go On.. My Heart.. starting to beat faster when I truly understood that Because I love YOU.. One thing that makes me so different is that I love YOU.. the Love that I have for YOU will never let others to fall because I love YOU.. I love YOU more and more and never stopped Loving YOU.. and I would look at YOU.. the Seven Men behind me.. they all fall on their two knees.. Arms UP forward and Heads all Lower before YOU.. and I see YOU still holding the Sword UP High.. and I know.. it means that Is it.. so I turn my Head.. LOOKING at the YOUNG MEN.. the New Recruits.. and I know that these are YOUR MEN.. these are the defenders.. who are going to Protect YOU with Me.. and Yes.. NO ONE is going to stop us from trying Our Best.. I know that if I love YOU.. I will do whatever it takes to make YOUR MEN stronger.. make them more wiser and BE ready to walk into the War.. I Hear more voices and I turn the Other way.. where YOU are at.. I see More New Young Men.. More new recruits wants to join in the Military force.. and I have never seen such a Large Number of gathered.. the Guard at the gate by the Fence Opens and More YOUNG NEW RECRUITS.. who has passed the exam all runs Into the join the Camp.. the training ground.. and they stand in the back of the Line.. and I stand there looking at these Unprepared men.. I must.. wiping my tears from my eyes.. I must help them.. and I turn to LOOK at YOU.. ARM UP and Head lowers.. Your Sword Points to Me again and I would lift up my head and I would say to YOU.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I just wanted to say Thank YOU.. If you are asking why.. I remember I was by the Fence.. DO you not remember.. I was by the Fence waiting for the Chance.. there was a Guard telling me that I could Not come inside.. I had the Letter.. and the Older MAN who was the Instructor.. who was the One to teach me.. after I lost my Father.. I have fallen into great depression.. crying IN the Night.. and Just wanted to Give UP on life.. I remember the Only HOPE was go to YOU.. I walked for many days with out FOOD or Water.. did Not see the Winter and the great blizzard came and swept me away.. at that Moment I thought I was going to die.. I only thought of YOU.. and Kept on walking through the SNOW until I just could not walk any more and fell in the snow.. I wanted to cry.. as I was laying on the snow.. all I could think is YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. just to go and to see YOU.. before I die.. at least to tell YOU how much I love YOU and I closed two eyes.. I woke UP and I only called Out to YOU.. wanting to be with YOU.. wanting to get close to YOU.. I was meant to die and said.. I am going to die any ways.. better to just die in the SNOW but.. I did Not die.. after waking UP in a Home.. the Older MAN started to teach me.. gave me an instruction and started to teach me the Art of Swordsmanship.. and He final gave me a Letter.. and Placed a Stamp saying I can go to the Camp.. the Guard by the Table told me I can go inside.. Large LINE to wait.. and It took me many days waiting in the Line and when It came to Me.. I was standing by the Fence.. the Guard who was by the gates told me I can't come in.. That day was the last day and I remember I saw YOU.. YOU came.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU stood with the Generals.. the TOP.. the CHIEF and the COMMANDERS.. Looking at the New Recruits who were the YOUNG MEN at that TIME.. I remember YOU turn your Head.. and as I was turning away leaving.. I heard you which it stopped me.. MAH MAH.. YOU did Not recognize me who was at the Garden.. but.. YOU stopped me as YOU wanted to see the Letter.. My Heart.. it started to beat again.. this was the Only way.. this was the Only road and I turn around to face YOU

MAH MAH.. Me down because LOOK.. I am still alive and well.. as I saw YOU and walking along side and I stopped and it made you stop and I would say to YOU.. I love YOU MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I love you and I would walk way back in the line with Many New Young Men who were recruits.. as I am LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. I remember still.. even this very day My Heart never changed.. because I still Love YOU.. both hands holding the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. this One has never been torn.. because I kept it safe.. close to My Heart.. and I would lift UP my Head.. I am LOOKING at YOU.. as YOU are sitting on the Horse.. with the White Dress.. your Sword still pointing direct at Me.. and I would say.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I have never stopped Loving YOU because I know that STILL at this Moment.. I still Love YOU and Yes.. I will take orders.. your Commands seriously and help rebuild Your Forces.. make them into warriors who will Fight for YOU.. who will protect YOU and defend this Nation because.. the Day I was rejected was the Day I saw YOU and that DAY was when YOU let me In.. I just wanted to tell YOU.. Crown Princess.. thank YOU for giving me the Chance to be a soldier who can protect and defend YOU and this Nation.. as I grab the stick.. putting the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU on the ground.. I get UP.. and the Seven Men who are behind me.. they are all get UP.. Arms stretch forward and the Heads all lower to YOU.. I would grab the stick.. the Seven MEN stays behind.. and I would walk down by myself.. and I would stand.. as One YOUNG MEN recruit walks Out.. He has the Stick in his Hand.. and I would shout.. to see How well does this YOUNG MAN can fight.. and I would turn to LOOK at HIM.. I would remember.. when I was at the Older Man's House.. In the ROOM.. I would be sitting Alone.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. I would be looking at YOU through that.. I would be asking.. I would be saying.. MAH MAH.. WHY do I keep on missing YOU.. I am trying to leave this Place.. I am trying so hard to leave.. so that I can be with YOU.. be close to YOU.. but I feel like I can't.. looking at this Picture.. this drawing picture of YOU.. I keep on missing YOU.. I needs to be with YOU.. and I can hear the DOOR.. it opens behind me.. and the Loud thunder and it is raining Hard out side.. the Older Man.. the teacher.. grabs my Back shirt.. my both hands opens to release the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU and I let it go.. I feel the Pull from the back and He yanks Me out of the room and I fall Out side.. I just can't believe I am out side sitting as I am getting hit by the rain.. it is pouring down On me because it is raining so Hard.. I stood and sitting.. crying because I am missing YOU.. I want to go where YOU are.. It is aching and Pain in me.. I want to be where YOU at.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. when can I see YOU and be close to YOU.. I needs to go to YOU.. and a stick falls to the ground next to Me.. I felt so Lonely at One Point.. at the Lowest of My Life and It was Only YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. It was Only YOU.. I cried when I saw YOU gone.. I remember watching YOU leave.. Sitting on the Horse.. I kept on calling Out to YOU.. But it was one of the Servants who took Me.. and Told me that I just could Not go.. I was reaching Out both arms.. shouting Out.. as the Horse was leaving.. in the Garden I felt so Alone.. crying in the dark.. I just could Not believe that YOU were gone.. I stood alone.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. I just could Not stop.. But kept calling Out to YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would watch the Moon come UP before Me.. and I would shout with the Loud Voice.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I am going to YOU.. very soon I will go to YOU.. when I heard the News.. and MY father died.. and came to the Garden.. I saw His body and with the servants.. We would bury my father.. I just could Not take this kind of Pain any More.. as I sat that night.. My Father was gone.. my Mother died when I was very young.. and even whom I love.. which Is you.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. even YOU.. I had to watch YOU leave me.. and Now.. there was NO reason for me to be at the Garden any more.. everything was Gone.. and whoever came to the Garden.. they were all taken away from me.. when I felt the Most lonely in my life.. the Only thing that remained close to my Heart.. It was the Art sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would unfold and I would take a Look at YOU.. talking to the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I would say.. Is it okay if I go to YOU.. what If YOU do Not want me to be near.. But there is nothing else.. there is NO ONE else I can Love.. but Only YOU I truly Love.. Please.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. would you let me get close to YOU.. I needs to tell YOU something.. packing One bag I would carry in my back.. I would look at the Garden One last time.. and I cried looking at my Father's grave and I would leave.. telling that I am Not going to ever come back.. too many people who I loved are gone before me.. My Heart is broken already.. I don't need my Hear to break again.. so I left the Garden.. wanting to start a new Life.. and I was thinking of the Palace.. Your Kingdom.. wondering if I could enter.. since I knew who YOU were.. maybe I be your servant.. I be your slave then.. so I have set my eyes on Your Kingdom.. I wanted to get close to YOU.. walking through the Day.. I would Not eat.. not much Out in the desert.. so I had to stay hungry for few days.. I would stop for rest at Night.. LOOKING at the stars in the sky.. Looking at the Moon.. and I would unfold the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I would Kiss the paper and say.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I will see you soon.. since I have No other place to Go.. I have made UP my Mind.. that I will come to YOU instead.. so I would take some rest.. thinking of YOU.. missing YOU.. sitting on rocks.. watching the Night passes by.. LOOKING at the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. early in the morning.. before the Sun sets.. I would start the Walk.. I have NO other place to go.. but I only wanted to see YOU.. to tell YOU that I would do anything to be close to YOU.. I be a servant.. Your Slave if YOU want me too.. so I started this journey to go to YOU.. did Not think that the winter storm was coming.. and It got so Cold.. I saw the snow flakes falling from the sky and dropping to freezing cold.. I begin to think about Death.. Maybe I won't make it after.. I am suppose to die here instead.. But I want to tell YOU something before I die.. I have to tell YOU one more time.. and I kept on walking through the freezing cold.. I would shiver and I would cry.. is it suppose to end like this.. that I always wanted to go to the Palace.. always dreamed of being close to YOU and to Love YOU.. even though YOU do not have to tell me anything.. I am Not asking YOU to tell me.. until you know in your Heart that YOU do.. if YOU truly love Me.. I believe Dreams will come true.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. If I die right here.. will YOU know that I never stopped believed in love.. I have never stopped believe that One day.. something Can happen.. and the lack of Food and the energy and the coldness of the air.. I just could Not continue to walk further so I fell on the ground.. and ALL I can hear is.. and ALL I wanted to tell YOU is that I love YOU.. that I never gave UP on love.. I truly feel it in my heart.. don't YOU know that I loved YOU and still do.. and I saw my tears ran down as I would close both eyes.. I would hear some noises.. and my two eyes opens.. and I am laying on the ground.. I turn my head too look.. an Older man was sitting.. reading pages of something and looks at Me.. I could Not believe that I did Not die.. But.. I heard.. it is the WILL to Live.. because I know that IN my Heart.. I am truly determined to Love YOU.. My WILL to Live so that I can Love YOU is what I got.. as I would hear.. I would be calling Out to YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. PRINCESS.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and even when I was on His back.. I would be calling Out to YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. that I needs to go to you.. and too see YOU.. and as I would be healing from the cold.. and the Low of energy cause of the lack of food.. the Older man became my teacher.. telling me that I can't go Now.. that I needed to wait and give some time.. and He was going to teach me the Art of War.. the Art of swordsmanship.. and Saw my Heart.. my Dreams of Loving YOU.. and to be protecting the Nation YOU were going to create.. and I would sit.. and I wanted to tell Him.. why.. and next to me is the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I wanted to tell this Older man.. I should just go.. and just go to YOU before it is just too Late.. but One thing that the Master told me is this.. if I truly love YOU.. I will be a Man.. a warrior who can Protect YOU.. Like a real MAN who fights.. and Just like my Dead father.. he was like the second father I really needed.. I would turn.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. But My Heart misses YOU.. what if I can't take this missing away.. I know that I miss YOU so much right Now.. what do I do when my Heart feels like it has been cut with a knife.. and My Heart right Now feels like bleeding to death.. and I wanted to say.. I should of been left to die instead because I knew I was going to die anyways.. but I looked at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and I would take a Look and would say.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. YOU do not know

I am looking at the Piano.. as I would walk into the room.. I look at your Picture.. wishing that YOU can see what I just got.. even though YOU may be far from Me.. at least send me Your Heart.. if I can have your Heart.. I will keep Your Heart safe here with Me.. looking at the Empty Glass jar.. I would Place the Empty Glass Jar on the TOP of the Piano.. and I wish that I can Place your Heart inside this Empty Glass Jar.. even though YOU are far.. Knowing and Looking at your Heart.. I know that YOUR HEART is close with me.. I pull up the Piano Chair closer to the Piano.. and I would sit on the chair.. only if I can get You here.. will YOU ever come closer to Me.. How do I get you closer to Me.. and I would look at the key bars of the Piano.. But.. I can't play the tune.. I can't even sing with my voice.. just sitting here.. it seems like it be better if I was Not here at the first Place.. But.. I can write YOU a Letter.. I know that I can tell YOU how much I miss YOU.. I can tell YOU with the Words.. with the Lips.. with my voice.. What I truly feel deep inside my Heart.. I put all my time when I grab the Pencil.. when I grab the paper.. and I grab the piece of paper.. I know that for sure I can write and tell you.. How I feel.. How it feels to be me here on the Other side.. as long as the Letter is able to get to YOU.. will you please receive the Letters.. will you please unfold the piece of Paper which be folded when I give it to YOU.. will you please open your Heart.. hear the words of Mine that comes from my Heart.. how much I love YOU.. How much I adore YOU and admire YOU and How much I miss YOU too.. you are wondering.. what is it about the Piano.. why am I bringing UP the word Piano to YOU if I can't sing.. or can't play tunes of the keys of the piano to bring Music alive.. why am I telling YOU or sharing you about the Piano.. because I want YOU to know.. I want to Place Your Heart.. I want to place your Heart on this Empty Glass Jar.. which is on top of the Piano.. so that when I look at Your Heart.. I can learn How to play the Piano.. it make take some time for me to Know How to Play.. but when I look at your Heart.. when I look at your Heart inside the empty glass jar.. I would look at your Heart.. it may inspire me to say I love you in a way YOU never felt before.. I would think of many different ways to tell YOU.. that I love YOU and that I want to say to Your Heart first.. I would like to tell Your Heart first so that YOU can truly trust me with Your Precious Heart.. without any trust.. there is NO way I can love YOU where YOU are able to love me back One day.. that is why I need Your Heart first with Me.. I remember when I was Young.. my Mother wanted me to Learn something new.. and bought a Piano for Me.. I wanted to learn something New.. wanted to tell a story through but when my Mother bought the Piano.. it was just too complicated for me to learn.. I would watch the Teacher come.. and she would play on the Piano.. I wish that I learned at that time because Now.. when I look at you.. I would LOOK at your Picture.. and I would say WOW.. I would say YOU are so Beautiful.. I would stand by the Piano and say.. YOU are as beautiful like the Piano because Now.. I want to play and make a Music for YOU.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I want to tell YOU MORE.. I want to step Out of the comfort zone and tell YOU what YOU means to me.. when ever I look at you.. through the Picture.. I would regret when I look at the Piano sitting in the Room.. because.. Now I want to play and make music so that I can tell YOU.. even though I may Not be able to sing YOU a SONG.. I would bring a recorder.. and would record my voice.. as my fingers would press on the key bars of the Piano.. I can at least speak to the recorder.. but before I would play on the Piano making Music to come alive.. I would be sitting in my bed room.. taking Out the Piece of paper.. I would write YOU a Letter first.. telling YOU my Heart.. speaking from my Heart.. and writing that comes from My Heart to let YOU know.. the Letter is Not the Only way I can tell YOU my Heart.. I would sit on the Piano Chair.. regretting because I did Not learn at that time.. I had the chance to learn when I was young.. but I only watched the teacher play.. looking at her back as she played and making Music.. pressing the Key bars.. to the sound of my ears it tingled because she Played so well.. if I only learned from that teacher.. only if I took the time to be more serious about learning the keys.. composing and writing the music Notes.. the keys.. I wonder what could of happened Now.. if I learned at that time.. which My Mother would say.. It be wise to learn this kind of instrument because when it is gone.. YOU will regret it when TIME passes by.. I would stand by the Piano.. I would sit on the Piano Chair.. looking at the key bars.. pressing the key bars.. only sounds but weird sounds will hit.. and I feel so terrible Not because I wish that I learned.. so that I can play for YOU.. so that I can tell YOU.. there is Much more ways to Tell YOU how much I love YOU.. I would even take the Piano out side.. even looking at the MOON in the Night.. when I miss YOU.. when I know that YOU are so Far away and I keep on missing YOU.. at least.. with tears in my eyes of Not able to hold YOU.. unable to be close to YOU and It hurts some nights.. I can play the Piano in the Night.. telling YOU.. looking UP at the MOON.. as my fingers hits the Key bars bringing music.. I would be pulling Out the Letter that is written for YOU and tell YOU a story of How much I love YOU.. if the neighbors would come out telling me about the Noises.. I would turn to that person and say.. DID YOU ever miss someone.. when it hurts.. it just hurts so much when YOU start missing.. I needs to say.. I needs to tell YOU this Heart of Mine.. there are times that it feels so painful.. it hurts.. I see tear drops out of my eyes.. so to take this anger out of My Heart for Missing YOU.. I needs to play YOU a SONG.. this Piano is my friend.. helps me to express what I feel when I am dealing with so Much sorrow in me.. that I love YOU but I miss YOU more.. why.. why do you keep on making me feel this way.. when YOU are so far off.. what am I suppose to do when I miss YOU.. and only thing that I can do is taking out the Picture.. the only thing I can do is pull the Picture out of my pocket.. and LOOK at YOU.. do YOU know How it feels when YOU just can't do nothing.. but only thing I can do is look at you in this Picture.. but I needs to tell YOU that I needs to be with YOU.. I needs to get this Off my Chest.. Off my Heart that I needs to be with YOU.. and it hurts me so much because I am dying right Now without YOU in my life.. and to keep my Anger and this pain.. this suffering away.. if I look at the Piano.. and I am able to pull the Piano chair closer.. and able to play the tunes of the Piano pressing on the key bars.. I know that I can tell YOU what I have written.. pressing the recorder.. as I am in the ROOM.. I would open up my Heart and say.. I miss YOU.. I am not sure why I am missing YOU so much right Now.. and I be asking.. do YOU ever feel the same as I do.. I don't want to hear the answer that is going to KILL me up inside but to ask YOU.. DO YOU miss me the way I do.. I have brought the Piano Out side.. the neighbors are telling me to be quiet and they needs to sleep.. but when I am sitting Out side.. with the Piano and the Chair.. I am able to look UP at the MOON and let the Moon hear my Voice.. asking the MOON.. do YOU hear me tonight.. even though I have the Recorder recording my Voice what I AM saying as the Letter is in front so that I can read it out Loud.. with tears of sorrow.. with My Heart be hurting.. I am missing YOU.. I am missing YOU so much right Now that I need YOU here.. can YOU Hear me.. I am out side.. can YOU hear the Piano Playing.. it is Me who is playing this Piano so that YOU can hear Me.. so that YOU know what I am doing right Now.. I want YOU to hear me.. that is why I have decided to buy another Piano.. a smaller where I can take it out side so that YOU can hear the key bars.. when you hear the sound of the Music coming out of the Piano.. YOU know that It is me.. which I am telling YOU.. I am hurting right Now.. I miss YOU right Now.. where are YOU so that I can tell YOU my Heart.. Please come Out.. come Out and hear this Piano playing.. making the Music to come alive.. only if YOU knew this Heart of Mine.. every time I am sad.. every time I feel this Pain.. every time I want to cry.. when I be missing YOU.. I will be playing the Piano out side.. where if YOU are able to see the MOON on the Other side.. YOU can hear me.. that I am crying right Now.. I am missing YOU right Now.. so you know that it is me on the Other side looking for YOU.. I am missing YOU.. I am missing YOU because YOU are so far away.. where are YOU.. Please tell me so that I know that How you be doing.. tell me so that I can go to YOU like the wind.. as I am standing.. I am looking at the Piano in the room.. I have the letter in my hand and On the Other hand I have your Picture.. thinking of YOU.. and just loving YOU even though I am not sure if I would ever meet YOU.. will I ever see YOU.. can YOU Please tell me that I can see YOU soon.. or do YOU want me to pull the Piano.. the smaller Piano and walk out side.. do YOU want to hear me playing.. when I play on this Piano.. just please remember I am wailing and I am crying on the Other side.. I am in the Room.. Looking out the window.. I see the rain showering down.. I would like to walk in the rain.. but it be nice If I take this Piano with Me.. I have written YOU another Letter.. I wonder if YOU can Hear Me Now.. I know that just standing Out alone.. and Turning to LOOK up.. LOOKING at the Moon and just speaking to the MOON.. that Moon does Not Hear Me

MAH MAH.. Will let YOU know about this journey How I came to be.. YOU know that I love YOU right.. and I would start to write YOU a Letter.. Like a Diary on paper.. and started to share.. putting into a BOX that the Older MAN gave me.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of You.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and every night.. I would go Out.. LOOKING at the MOON.. and I would pull out and unfold the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would look at YOU.. I would walk into this One room that was given to me to sleep.. and I would write YOU.. each Night I would write as I would put this Letter into the Box.. knowing that One day.. some day SOON I will see YOU and I am going to give you the Box.. with the FULL of letters.. telling YOU what I been through those days when I felt alone.. when I felt very lonely and just kept on Missing YOU.. I would cry some nights.. that I told myself.. the main reason WHY I left the garden in the first Place is so that I can go to YOU.. and show YOU that I have come long ways just to be close to YOU.. but Now.. I feel like I am stuck here.. what am I suppose to do when I want to go see YOU.. and I would bump heads with the older man who told me to be patient.. to wait.. to wait until.. but I just wanted to go to see YOU.. How Long must I wait.. what if.. I would go out side into the Night.. and Unfold the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and say.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. How long must I stay here.. I don't want to stay here for long because I want to go see YOU.. but I can't let go of my Dreams.. I have made a promise that I wanted to be a real MAN for YOU.. a WARRIOR and a Man who holds the sword so that I can fight to Protect Your Nation.. I want to also be Your Fighter who will never backs UP any fights that presses On.. but I am still having this Heart of Mine.. I want to see YOU.. see YOU how much YOU have grown.. I want to tell YOU.. for a Long time.. How I been loving YOU since.. and still I just can't let go of Loving YOU.. what do I do WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. can YOU please tell me what I must do.. because even for loving YOU seems like a fight for my Life.. tell me which way I must turn.. so that I can go.. help me to know.. and I would stand alone.. looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and I would hear foot steps and goes back into.. when I turn back to Look.. I know that It was the older man.. the Teacher.. the Master who was there.. knowing How much I love YOU.. He told me that I have just too of a BIG dream.. and I told him.. I only live Once and I can only love Once too.. so I am going to love as Much as I can if it means One shot.. it is to Love my crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. as I would take a look.. and I would think about the Box.. and Putting One letter after another into the Box and it would be full of letters I would write to YOU.. telling YOU my Heart.. how each day counted and meant for something because I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to be with YOU.. close to YOU to tell YOU.. I have this One Box.. can I show you this One Box and If you open this One Box.. it be many letters.. I was aching.. in pains I would tell YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. How much I missed YOU.. and what it felt like because I could not go to YOU Yet.. how delaying and spending more time with this teacher.. How I just did Not want to stay long because it seemed like He wanted me to stay there for a Long time instead.. But finally.. the day comes WHEN HE gives me a paper.. and HE puts HIs name and says that if I can take this Letter.. I am able to go into the opening of the Palace.. I waited for a Long time.. I waited for more than eight years.. that much time has passed by since.. and Now.. the paper is in my hands and I am allowed to go and be a part.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I always wanted to be a part of Your Dreams.. to be a Part of Your Nation which YOU are building.. and to go see YOU.. and a Friend.. close friend of Mine also is coming with Me.. to tell you that I love YOU and that I have never forgotten to tell YOU still I love YOU.. I am Looking Up at the Moon.. the Seven Men are behind Me on Watch Guard.. the New Recruits are in the tents and they are all sleeping.. I would unroll the Paper.. the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. my hand runs over.. Looking at How Beautiful YOU are.. I have Never seen such a Great Beauty.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I know that I am getting the New Recruits.. the New Young Men.. So many people are waiting.. the Fences are blocking More New Recruits.. and I am Not sure where all these YOUNG MEN came from.. but.. Many wants to Join this Military Arts.. wants to join the Circle.. But it is YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. these are YOUR YOUNG MEN.. the New Recruits who are.. and as I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I only saw you this Morning.. watching More YOUNG MEN.. the New RECRUITS.. By the Fences.. trying to get in.. but the Fences would Not let them Pass through.. as I turn to LOOK UP at the MOON.. the training will start when the early Morning.. when the Sun comes UP.. I am going to prepare these YOUNG NEW RECRUITS.. they are going to come to this training Ground.. the Ones who passed the examinations and now.. ready to pick UP the WOODEN SWORD STICKS.. and I would be turning Back.. Looking at the Seven Men.. the friends of Mine.. and they all look at me with a SMILE.. and I turn to LOOK UP.. looking at the MOON.. Just thinking of YOU.. HOW far I came.. and How it is because I love YOU.. I never stopped Loving YOU and that is the Driving force behind of Never giving UP Hope.. it is because I love YOU.. I wish that WANGSEJABI MAH MAH knows this Heart of Mine.. that I would see.. A Messenger comes.. I hear the Horse running.. and the Horse stops.. the Messenger gets Down from the Horse and LOOKS at me and the Seven Men.. He shows me a Scroll.. and the Enemies are going to Come Back again.. and they want to fight again for this War.. it is Not Finished Yet.. and the Messenger tells me.. get the YOUNG MEN RECRUITS also ready for the war.. I watch the Messenger gets ON the Horse and He leaves out of sight.. as I am thinking about Another War.. I am Not sure if I will make this One alive.. But.. For YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. we Must Win for YOU.. so that YOU WILL BE our QUEEN.. and to make this Nation stronger and the People.. the New Recruits stronger to protect YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. DO YOU remember.. When I first came.. and I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture.. as I am speaking looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture.. drawing picture of YOU.. and I would say to your Drawing Picture.. DO YOU NOT remember when I first came to the Training Ground.. I wanted to come.. I wanted to be the part of the Military Arts.. but My Heart.. I always believed that I will meet YOU one day SOON.. that I get to show YOU my Face.. I get to draw Near.. to get closer to YOU.. I remember it was in a Night like this.. and as I turn to LOOK UP at the MOON.. I would go back to the Good Ole Days.. I am sitting in the ROOM.. with the Closet Friend.. I am looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. and I would smile.. I will see YOU soon.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please be Patient and wait.. I know that I be meeting you so SOON.. I lost my Father.. but there was a Older MAN who became Like a Father.. taught me the Arts of Swordsmanship.. and has told me.. it is TIME for me to enter the training Camp.. the Training Ground.. and Gave me a Letter.. with the Stamp.. I would be looking at the Letter.. and His Mark of stamp.. on the Other Hand is the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I can't believe this Teacher gave me this Stamp Letter.. which Allows me to go direct into the Training Ground.. and I know.. the Next day.. Many are going to enter the training Ground.. or the Camp which YOU MUST pass in the Camp to go into the Ground.. but This Letter.. with the Stamp.. for Many Years.. I have been waiting for this day to Come.. for Many Years.. I would be coming Out side.. and I would LOOK UP to the MOON.. and I would ask.. I will be there very SOON.. I know that the distance between YOU and I seems a LONG WAY.. but I believe.. I know.. why.. because I know my Heart.. My Heart which Loves YOU.. I have Never stopped thinking of YOU.. I have never stopped Loving YOU.. YOU may Not know It.. when YOU LOOK at the distance between YOU and the MOON.. it is very Far to touch that MOON.. but I know.. Because I love YOU.. it does Not seems so Far any more.. as Long as I believe and I know.. I will be seeing YOU SOON.. I will be meeting YOU so SOON.. and I would look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. the Closest friend would look at me.. but I never get tired of LOOKING at YOU.. even though the Drawing was when YOU were much more Younger Years.. I do remember that with out YOU.. I know that I can't dream of coming this Close.. dreaming of getting close to YOU but I never stopped dreaming of Us.. of We.. that One Day.. I will see you and meet YOU.. I be close to YOU that I am able to speak and tell YOU.. I love YOU.. as the Next Day Comes.. me and the Closest Friend are standing in the Line.. the Line is so Long.. too many Young Men.. waiting in the Line to either go into the Camp or to the Ground.. and My Heart is beating.. It is beating so fast because I know that I am getting Close to YOU.. I see about one Hundred Young men standing.. waiting for their Time to enter.. I am so excited.. but also.. My Heart keeps on beating just too Fast